Life In General

Ok, a little rant before I continue watching Hana Yori Dango 2 episode 6 and stop my hiatus from blogging.

I have had thought of this for quite a long time and I quite frankly am pissed about it. Not really pissed but more like irritated. Yes irritated by the fact that from my experience and research and according to people around me, acquaintances and well dating site research…why is it that almost…and I mean almost 75% of the Japanese women or Asian women for that matter like Caucasian/White or Black/African men? And what’s bad is that the fact that I’m Filipino. I’m damn proud to be Filipino but that gives off a VERY bad connotation. I don’t blame these women nor anyone…its a damn reality that I have to face everyday. What does being Filipino or Asian for that matter actually matter?

A white friend of mine said that its the truth and there’s nothing I could do about it. Yes I could look cool, yes, I could dye my hair, yes I could style it, yes, I could get a nose job and fix my appearance. Because the truth is 95% of the whole fucking population (and I mean the world) accept everything at face value. I could not even prove myself or even spout a single word and they all turn their backs at me. By not giving chance to someone is like taking candy from a baby and kicking it until it has experienced near-death at such a young infantile age.

I live in this reality and so do all Asian guys who can’t get a girl from another or the same culture. Luck are the other ethnicity that get the dream of another race. Everyday I am faced with this bullshit reality and I cannot escape it. All I could do is whine and whine and whine and fucking whine. I do not blame anyone for this, the media, the movies, anyone for that matter. It hurt to be me but at the same time I love me.

It is a bitter-sweet reality that everyday I walk down the street loving myself and loving another culture but both of them do not get reciprocated equally. Thus my walk towards a path of happiness and well-being is hampered by the reality that I live in.  But still a glint of hope is always there, I look forward to the day every single person is fucking peach colored and maybe, just then maybe I’ll have a shot. But that’s several millennia away. And I’d be dead by then. hopefully my offspring could experience that safety net from the insanity I live in.

But then again I reject some cultures, I myself am a starter of this race segregation, I myself am close-minded, but that is what we call preference, a more suitable word for the "I don’t like your race." sentence. At the end of the day I whine yet I am also at fault.

Where does the insanity end? When I do get laid? When do all race have peach coloured skins?

At the end of the day…I sleep, thinking of Horikita Maki and Niigaki Risa, how and when and where will I get a chance to show them that I am proud to be of a race (dark-yellow as my friends see it) that are honest, hard-working, sincere and all that.

At the end of the day…I am still…clueless.

Flash is now a MUST for programmers, gone are the days that Flash is
just a vector animation tool. You’d be surprised how powerful Adobe
Flash is.

These are some of the major features I can say and have discovered recently:
1.) CSS can format a Flash layout (an external CSS file can format Flash content)
2.) PHP/MySQL integration
3.) XML/RSS reader and using CSS to format the RSS feed.

Here’s a video of my professor having a “free” seminar.
http://video.google.ca/videoplay?docid=-4732070280213739054&hl=en-CA

His name is Brendan Sera-Shriar…he has published several books and
is one of the best teachers around. All it takes is Adobe Flash, a
bottle of beer and a few laughs and you’re good to go in the industry.
>:E

Here’s one of the projects he did for Seneca@York (Ontario, Canada) just to benefit the students.
http://www.studentfilmnetwork.net/eng/index.php

One of his companies that he runs.
http://backspacestudios.com/

So to all techies out there…you’d better start learning Flash or else…you’re gonna be blown away by the competition.

I’ve tried to look for the revivals for this song but I’m pretty sure they can’t compare to the original sounds of Hotdog. Man how I wish I could visit Manila again…I’m pretty home-sick but it’ll come to pass…and hopefully some day return back to Manila.

Song Title: Manila
Original Song by: Hotdog

Manila, Manila
Miss you like hell, Manila
No place in the world like Manila
I’m coming home to stay.

Awww…this song brings back memories…a lot of memories…and I mean 25 years of memories coming back all at the same time…damn I really miss Manila.

CANADIAN TORPE!!! FTW!!! XD for the people who don’t know "Tagalog" its a term used for boys who are shy and don’t have the confidence to approach women they like. Nuff’ said…yes I am "technically" a Canadian-Immigrant Torpe…hopefully in 2 more years…full fledged Canadian Torpe.

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The series has come to an end or so I think it is. Lucky Star is the
story of several high school girls in Japan living their daily lives.
It’s like Azumanga Daioh but more on the Otaku side of things and the
anime culture that affects their daily lives. People who know, Keroro
Gunsou, Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu, Dragon Ball, Air, To Heart, Gundam,
Full Metal Panic: Fumoffu and much much more will be able to enjoy this
series as the characters from these anime make a cameo appearance and
their songs are used in the karaoke box.

This series spans 24 episodes or so I think and there has not been
one episode that I did not laugh. I sometimes can’t get their jokes and
puns because its too deep and I I had to rewind and carefully read the
subtitles. It’s otaku culture on a more acceptable note.

Another part of this is the famous “Lucky Channel” segment of an
Idol named Kogami Akira and an incoming male seiyuu Minoru Shiraishi
(IDOL!!!!). They talk about lots of stuff about the series and anime in
general. But for the most part fighting like cats and dogs and how
Kogami isn’t shown on the main series. LOL.

If you’re as perverted as me you’ll notice a lot of hentai-ish puns
with just the Japanese language. Like “chin-XXXX” and “DORILU” but in
moderation. XD

I’d give it a 8/10, why the low score? Well if the puns weren’t so
hard to understand I’d give it a 9/10 and still lower than perfect
since the anime lacks in support and has rode the wave of the Suzumiya
fame by girls dancing on the opening credits. I recommend this anime fi
you want that “SABAW” factor in your daily life. When you feel
down…just think Lucky! Lucky Me! LUCKY STAR!

P.S.
Props to Nipponsei for releasing samples of the Sountracks. Now I gotta order mine online. XD

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Yes, it is a Monday once again here in Canada.

Once again I am in the midst of a battle against time…but then again…is time real? Time is a man-made device to control the moving of an object and change. Time is only logical and thus is intangible. This is a form of control that man has created by himself and thus it is a man-made "logical" theory. These words are the remnants of an idea given to me by a good peer of mine from the college…more like a therapist…but more of a peer.

Ah life…I used to say I was lazy as fuck but now…looking back at it…its more like apathy according to my peer. And yes…it seems so now that I know of the proper definition to it. Actually it is as proven by my memories of yesteryear.

Being a spoiled brat is true, but to an extent I have taken it upon myself to rid myself of this for so long that I am gradually seeing a major change in my lifestyle and I have been looking at myself in the mirror lately and seeing all the changes. Before I came here(Canada) I was still that lil’ol semi-spoiled brat. Now…interestingly I changed and up until now I’m changing. Damn I’m good. XD

I have more stuff to write about by I have to retire to my sheets, curiously enough I forgot if I slept when I woke up…I’m serious…I’m not sure if I did sleep or not!!! Damn…anyway so yeah…I’ll be posting more when I get the chance…I feel like hugging a Hello Kitty plushie. *wink*

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As some people know, I’ve been in a slump lately, but that didn’t seem to be the case. I produced fairly good and acceptable designs, my learning curve for things was slowly going on a steady and controllable rise and my general outlook for life changed.

I’ve been pissed-off lately about the things that have been happening in my life, bad company (house), bad memories and overall just plain bad things.

I dunno why but for some reason I tried to look up an ex-gf on the net, I tried so hard to "stalk" her and then after not finding any information about her…I stopped. The reason I stopped was that I questioned what I was doing? I wasn’t sad, mad or anything I was just plain curious. Weird eh? Anyway so yeah I stopped looking for her and for some reason I felt good. I wasn’t as irritated by the atmosphere in the house, on the bus, on the subway, at school. I normally would be pissed off at everyone that I didn’t know but for some reason today was a good day. I expected to have more sleep but that was beside the point.

Anyway I’m still in a good mood after this…finding my ex-gf might not be the reason. I guess my therapy is working even thought it only has been one day that I met up with my therapist who was giving my a crash course in life. XD

Anyway…I’m going to meet with my therapist later today and there’s still a few more things we still have to discuss, hopefully I get to show my good side and generally feel better than I was feeling a few hours ago. So to sum this half-day whole up…life is looking pretty good.

Supplemental posts to follow by the end of the day.

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Emmanuel Vistro was born on the 11th of November 1981 in Quezon City,
Metro Manila Philippines. He graduated in 1995 from elementary and
proceeded to continue his high school studies at the University of
Saint Tomas (University of Sto. Tomas) high school. (USTHS) At this
time he acquired his first IBM Compatible Personal Computer as a gift
for graduating from elementary.

During his 2 year stay, he was
kicked out of USTHS due to his rebellious attitude and non-Catholic
views in 1997. He was re-enrolled in another Catholic based high school
where he was again kicked out due to rebellious activities and punching
the principal for cutting his hair in 1998.

During the same year
he took an Advanced Placement Test from the Department of Higher
Education where he passed the high school level and could continue on
to college without any credentials from high school. He skipped one
whole year of high school and was ready for college. During his free
time until the next batch of college entries were accepted, he started
to learn HTML scripting and went on to do small jobs for small
companies.

He was deciding to return to UST for his college
education and start fresh in the realm of Fine Arts. During that time
he had upgraded from his first computer by working on several small
jobs to an Intel Celeron 400 Mhz. His computer enthusiasm led him to
another college and another line of work which was Computer Programming.

Emmanuel
also called Em or Eman during this time enrolled in one of Asias First
and Largest Computer College, AMA Computer College. He left his passion
of art and opted for a profitable career during this time. He stayed
for 6 years in a 3 year course due to constantly failing college
mathematics with the likes of Discreet Mathematics and Assembly
Language Programming. He published the first PC game ever developed in
a college in 2003. Then in April of 2006 he moved to Canada to pursue
greater opportunities and left the programming world.

In
September of 2006 he enrolled in the School of Communication Arts,
Digital Media Arts at Seneca@York. He successfully passed the
examinations and proceeded to return to college in January of 2007
after missing the first week of classes.

In April of 2007 he and
several of his good friends from Seneca@York started a creative
collective called Provoke Digital Media Solutions. He now looks to
Craig’s List Toronto to fund his daily living. He is now called “Manny”
buy all his Canadian peers and lives with this Mother, Father and
Sister who sponsored him to migrate to Canada.

Much has developed over the 2 weeks in school…more like 3 weeks, I missed the 1st week and now cramming over it. ~__~ I’ll be switching to either Blogger or Blogspot due to some subject requirements. T__T I hate migrating. ~__~ Anyway that’s all for now.

A while ago I was attending a class about sound / music. Our teacher was a friggin’ hippie!!! Long hair, Chucks, torn jeans and a black shirt with a flaming skull in front and a skeleton hand giving the finger with the words "F*ck Yeah!". Damn, you don’t see teachers like that in the P.I. f*ck no, HELL NO! But anyway, he was cool and a very kind teacher IMHO. Anyway the class is  all about editing and arranging sound effects…pretty cool huh? Yeah the subject is cool but my classmates weren’t.

We were supposed to be grouped in 4’s unfortunately…no one was willing to approach me or even talk to me…I can sense something here…is it just me or is it what I think it is.

White people stay with White people, Black people stay with Black people, Asians…well they tend to be alone. I am one of them. it was like 3 Asians in that class…I think, I’m not sure if the other guy was Flip or not.

Anyway, is it racism? Or is it my abrasive personality? I have long been a loner except for a VERY SELECTED circle of friends whom I have close ties with. Anyway is it me or is it the system here? I’m not so sure myself. I perceive, sense it and I perceive. Although it is too early to say anything about it…I’ll be giving it a month or two and see where I goes from there. So far in this assignment…I’m going to be all alone in this "supposed" 4-man team assignment.

The second subject was fun…finally a class that will teach me Adobe Illustrator. The way they teach is very fresh, new and exciting for me since the f*cked up P.I. has this form of "formal" education where they just teach you and that’s it. Here f*ck no, we have a PUB night…sponsored by our Program Coordinator Mr. Tedford. Booze, pizza, cigs and best of all, creativity. According to him this is where all the "Artsy-Fartsy" students gather in the college, go to the "Hive" and party the night out. Yeah, you read it right, PARTY the night out. Man I wish I could go but I have no mode of transportation, no "close" friends and it’ll be like I dunno. I’m afraid to go, maybe when I do get close friends…I’ll be able to participate. Oh yeah, they’re also selling 3DSMax books for like $150 a book, check out how much it’ll be in the market. ~__~ And one lucky student will be given I think a CS2 suit courtesy of Adobe. Sounds fun eh? I wish I could really go and get my hands on that original CS2. >__< Oh well, back to my portfolio…

Among other things… -12° C today, the snow was around 5cm to 6cm thick and I couldn’t be…happy? LOL This negativity in temperature has made my ears, nose and hands to fall off. I’m serious…I could not feel them. And yet back home when the X-mas season was kicking in or the month of November when the cold winds were blowing…I was like a cat drowning in freezing waters. ~__~ Well I think I’m gradually getting used to this negative temperature, I’ll be living here for quite some time or even the rest of my life so I’d better start getting used it.

Meh…in the end…I have assignments. ~__~

TTYL Y’all.

-Eman